Mishkan HaNefesh, Yom Kippur, p. 293
All of us have made mistakes this year and we have also made excuses. We have acted selfishly and we have behaved callously. We yearn to be better, to walk through this world in accordance with the values that we hold in our hearts. We begin that process by admitting where we have missed the mark and praying for the strength we need to return to a righteous path.
Because I was angry Because I didn't think Because I was exhausted and on edge Because I'd been drinking Because I can be mean Because I was reckless and selfish Because I was worried about money Because my marriage was dead Because other people were doing it Because I thought I could get away with it Because. . . I did something wrong. Because I'm in pain Because I wish I could undo it Because I hurt him Because I lost her trust Because I let them down Because I was self-destructive Because I was foolish Because I'm ashamed Because that's not who I am Because that's not who I want to be Because. . . I want to be forgiven. God, bring down my walls of defensiveness and self-righteousness. Help me to stay in humility. Please - give me the strength to do what's right.
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